Profile R-260: Ferdinand J Blackwell

Owned by Zincwolf

Rider

Element: Metal / Dark

Origin: Shérok

Race: Abrendese

Jobs: Adventurer (Novice)

Rank: Dragon Companion

Status: Second Bond (R-336)

Familiars: Stymphalian, Pangolin, Leopard Seal, Snowy Owl

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Design

Art

Names: Ferdinand Jonathan Blackwell
Nicknames: Ferdi

Written description:
Age: Late 20's-mid 30's
Eye colour: Grey-blue
Skin and Hair colour/type: Soft and fair skin which is prone to burning over tanning, with considerable dusting of freckles across his whole body. Ferdinands hair colour is somewhat on the grey-silver side too, reaching well down past the nape of his neck. He has little to no body hair by choice and is always clean shaven.
Body: Slight, somewhat androgenous. Very short at a meagre 5''3. He has anxious body language and often crosses an arm across his chest, plays with his hands, his hair - anything. Trembles with heavily stressed.
Extra notable features:
He is extremely bad at admitting when he needs help, and his dragons are a lot easier to read then he is. High strung. Alchoholic who is at least attempting to recover, but its not going well within the barracks. He is missing his right arm and has heavy scarring at the amputation site at just above his elbow and engineered his own prosthetic with Abrendese tech.

Other
Origin: Shérok
Religion: N/A.
Morals: Lawful good, though can be persuaded to bend rules
Orientations: Homosexual, He/him, Cis
First/closest Dragon(s): Juno, Stardrop
Voice: Ferdinand is plagued by a stutter he often can't control and gets very frustrated about.
Scent: Mechanical oil, whiskey, flowers.
Clothing styles:
Baggy, neutral colours. Seems to favour military green, white and brown, but whether thats his actual preference or just what he's used to is hard to seperate.

Shares a home and is in a loving relationship with - Nicolo

Bio & Personality:

Ferdinand, normally going by 'Jesse' to most, and 'Blackwell' to his superiors, is an Engineer and Architect that was formally 'willfully conscripted' into the Abernese Milita on account of his father, in the past, being a highly ranked officer. Their family were never noble or prized very highly, but because of his father's past service, and subsequent death, Ferdi was dragged from his small studio and put to work on building and maintaining the vehicles, gadgets and equipment on a remote sub base working on finding old magical relics to research their meaning and possibly harness their magic.

He was put under an uncharacteristically very, very cruel captain who abused his power and authority to the extent that ended up brain washing him into thinking the Milita have eyes and ears everywhere, and if he so much as whispered his unhappiness about his life or his job, he'd be hurt again. He lost his arm for breaking a machine accidentally. What would he lose next time? Because of the upheaval of his life, and the situation he is now found in, Ferdi has turned to alcohol to try and stem his dark, dark thoughts and the feelings of being trapped and suffocated.

He's anxious, depressed and extremely overwhelmed by it all, but he can't do anything about it. He also hates his job, especially, due to his upbringing - his mother was very superstitious, and so working for a company that upheaves and destroys ancient relics and gravesites, it kills him inside, his anxiety just making him picture all the terrible luck or curses that might haunt him as a result.

Ferdi has a very active imagination, and while that can lend him a little bit of escape from his situation, as well as creative freedom with the things he fixes and builds and designs, it also makes things that haunt him a little more real. He's jumpy as a result. And because of his disability, and his small, meek stature, he's grown to be very frail mentally and physically. Despite it all, he hopes one day, he'll be better.

Things will be better.

And in his alone time, with his boyfriend, he shows a more forgiving, wholesome side. Affectionate, and gentle, but... easily tipped into frantic stammering and mumbling when he's away from closed doors. He's a very sincere person, loving with his whole heart, and hates to lie unless he has to. Empathetic to others problems, when he cares about them. Understands.

Even if he makes excuses sometimes for horrible behaviour, because 'they can't really mean it... right?'

His relationship with Nico has helped him unpick some of these more rigorous beliefs. Between the dragons and him? Who knows how long it will be until Ferdi... might grow a spine.